Like the Sun

The silence is like the sun

I point my face towards it

Close my eyes, soak in its beauty.

It is like the mountain's fresh air

Settling around the room

I take off my mask and breathe.

It is like the ocean waves

Crashing into my soul

I let it send me out to Freedom.

It is like the smell of a book, the touch of a hug, the feel of the wind

Mock your defeat and watching you go.

Candy

I chant it back and forth

Memorizing the formations of my lips

The clicks of my tongue

I let the words settle in my mouth

Like the sweetest of sweets

Coating, comforting

I swirl it over and over

Sure to get every last ounce

Of truth out of it

Before I swallow

And let it become a part of me.

The words will comfort me

The words will save me

The words will find me

In my hole, in my heart.

I tell myself these things

Coating, comforting

I tell myself these things.

They wash over me

Like the warmest of seas

And I will try to wholly believe.

Still Running

I am lost and so confused

Wanting too much to be amused

Stretched too thin

These thoughts begin

And I am still running

Still running

It's dark outside and I'm still awake

Wanting never these decisions to make

Begging to be more

Changed at the core

I am still running

Still running

The ocean crashes on my fate

I'm so afraid I'm too late

To ever become

Not so numb

I am still running

Still running

I am still running

Running from who I was

I am still running

Running in this lost direction

I am still running

Running to you, to you, to you

Build me a home

In your arms

The only place I've ever known

For I am still running

Running to You.